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Monday, February 21, 2005.
1:01 AM
today_ just cort trian to work .. saw min and then yoha, jong nd alison 0=). . uh wasabit late and yerh dum de dum work was heeps long .. workd wif laura jeremiah and eniz then jermzi waited for eniz 1 hour then waited for me 40 minutes after that coz lillian was late ROFL thanx gusy! then ate withem and ivan came to work his 530 shift. igotoff around 440 . . then was pouring and walkd to central .. jeremiah walkd me =D fanxx!! OMG yerh nd this freak guy came in today and goes
'hi karmen. . are you chinese or japanese?"
' im chinese'
'are both your parents chinese?"
'yes'
'well youre very cute . .
'um thanq. . ?? [WTFFFF]'
and then i served the next customer :|:| holy shat wata pedo ROFL he was like late 20z ahhh . .
aNYWAYZ yerh cort train to ew and met cousins on train and wento carlingford for grandmaz birfdai dinnah and bumpd into pearl! 0=) . .
saturday_ working from 11 -7 . . with lillian and kevin =D kevin waited an hour for me heehee=P coz he finisehd at 6. then we went k at cashbox. . prettyf uckd up nite coz evryone DOGGD It coz it was raining -_-" herm anyways fuck it was pouring so i bought a 7 dollahh umbrella from iga lolz after k cort train back wif kitty pat nd colly tu ew then metup with the boiz nd went k at ew. . got pickd up arnd 1130 . dropt kitty home nd yerh
friday_ wentu school then epping library to pickup my diary which stanley had from thursday coz yer left it . =\ OMG AND SUM1 HAS MY GLUE AHHH T_T . . but yerh he didnt come and gave it to androo who didnt come either .. so just sat and then yerh did nuffing. . but collybum came and i hadnt seen her for ages=\ then went home and tyf latahh . . i songled and piano`ed
thursday_ just went school nd epping library
wednesday_ school nd epping library tu do my hw 0=)
` onli God knowz.
..how much i love you `
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Tuesday, February 15, 2005.
10:15 PM
TODAY . . . wow its my birthday . . i turnd 16 actualli exactli 12 hours ago 0=)
today was an alryte day . . after school . . cort tha train from epping and yerh tracey and jane dint know lolz but when i got on yooni was like HAPPY BIRTHDAY 0=) and larissa got me a card and credit =D=D hehe omg the card almost made me cry . . finkn bout seriousli all tha stages of our lives weve been thru . . theyre all based upon the bfz she had the time lolz . . omg the memories. .. serioulsi makes me cry when i fink about alllllllllllllllllllllll the daym shit weve been thru . . lyk i kno when i think back on high school when im 50 im gonna think of our dayz haha how funni we used to . .well YOU used to say you were 16 like 2 years ago . . and finalli sweetie . .this year we are 0=) . . anyway yerh got to school and ppl sed happy burfday . .my name was ont he board lolz and shcool suckd . . fkn hotness . . karin and shaz got me presents! karin got me this cool green apple lip balm and shaz got me this red earth lipstick that was like MY FAVOURITE colour but i lost! =D=D and the cyoootest earrings =D
finalli got thru tha daym day and cort train then bussd it home in tha fkn heat . . got droppd at epping later and scabbd money off mum tu pay for dinner ~ metup with kitty colly janet dizon kevin . and later pat david stef ace and rochelle 0=)
omg dinner was sooooof unni we were fucking loud and omg reeli embarassing at moments hahaha so full . . =S ROFL i had THREE jellyjoyz HAHAHAH yummmmmm thanx guyz for coming 0=) AND THANX FOR THE PRESENTS OMG
colly_ got me Dior 50ml YUM fkn sxc box =D with my future wedding dress on it!
pearl_ pRETTIest compact omg i lovit and this cute blue bear!
stef_ fkn gorjussest gold neclace THANQ sweetieee!
kitty_ daym sxc diesel skirt =D=D
david + pat_ wiggles '4th birthday' card . . seriousli the best gift this year . . dno how to thank you guys =kevin_ got me stuff yesterday 0=)
ROFL after dinner after kevina nd stef and colly left . . david wantd tu giv me 16 slaps so we scissor paper rockd it and if he lost he hada get the 16 slaps FUKN AND HE LOST ROLFROFLROLF . . . THE DAYM UNLUCKI CUNT HOLY CRAP AND WE SMACKD HIS ASS SOOOGOOD OUTSIDE THE KRN RESTAURANT EVERYONE WAS STARING THINKING WE WERE FKN WHACKED AHHAHAHAH you guys are lucki you dun live there :'( ppl gonna look twice at me now =\=\ but goshDAYM it was fknnn funni shit =p yerh kitty went hom with pat and ace droppd me dizzy and david home 0=) THANX ACE! THANX EVERYONE for coming!!!
omg and thanx for evryone wishing me a happy birthday today! means a lot =D and for those who put it on their nicks!!! . . pat, paul, bee, jennipoo, kat, stef, kevin, david, androo, ella, jeremiah, pearl, tamz =D=D
thanx for evryone who sms`ed / calld me =D yor the coolest hehehe
monday_ VaLenTynz DaY . . omg the whole school SERIOUSLI got sumthing except me . . omg it is SOOO sweet when ppl send stuff to the school * SIGH* . .HINT HINT FOR NEXT YEAR *ahem* hahaha . . nah but it is lyk sO sweet i would lyk LOVE you if you did that hahaha unless yora freak =P . . hrm eniwaiz schoolw as aight i gess . . highlight subject was probli music prac yay i pracd on a grand piano =P . . anyways after school cort trian wiff karin and i think out ov all days this was the day i lookd the SHITTEST on ahahha my great luck AYE .. anyways i got to ct walkd half way tu yoshionya to meet ryan nd dizon and hten they sat on steps and ate like hoboz -_-" then ryanleft and we went gloria jeans to meet kitty and kevin . . omg he got me a roze so now i lost my bet with jono and havto go allll the way tu hurstville to eat lunch with him =\ NICE ONE KEVIN lolZ jokes. . it was sweet and now i feel speshol! heheh . .OMG AND YUMMM got me 1ooml Gucci Envy ME . . niiicessst sweeeeetesssstt smell *DROOLZ* THANQ SO MUCH . . you seorusli went tuuu overboard =\=\ I TOLD YOU NOT TO! pft just defy me why dont you . . .haha but yerh fanx agen 0=) . .. just walkd arnd did nuffing reeli wento pitt st met my brother to getta new fone but daym was SO hard to choose coz if i got the fone i REELi wantd . . the motorolla A1000 i knew i would wreck it in like a day ( lolz i droppd my fone twice today =\) and it was like expensive . but if i got the uglier fone [e1ooo] i get 180 bux ontop ov it . . so i jsut got the ugli fone . .and if i dun endup liking it i can just keep my LG flip . . i dun reeli care no more hahah buh yerh then kitty cort train home wiffus nd . . uhhuh 0=) HAPPY VALENTINES EVERYONE!!!
` onli God knowz.
..how much i love you `
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Sunday, February 13, 2005.
9:02 PM
today did nothing . . mum wouldnt let me go to church T_T . i feel so bad . . saturday met kitty at epping went capitol took stickahz ate krn and met matt eric elena jermzy kevin nd stuff and they wento beach except elena and kevin . . we metup with them later. . me nd kitty went general to exchange her topt hen wento phoenix to wait for bubsyz burthdya . . but by the time she got ther we hada leave T_T im sooo sorry bubsy :'( hope u hada great birthday tho =\=\ saw pearla nd colly also . . wentu see hide and seek mygosh sooo scary . . yerh then playd dr . . hadnt playd for sooo daym long ~ then went phoenix nd saw tha sxc bethlehem chix hehe and went cashbox forlike 5 minutes . . se dbye tu elena kevin bignick nd sutff then me nd kitty ran to central to catch express home . had a chinese new year dinner ++ yeesang nd watchd wicker park .
friday had bible study . itwas good 0=)
argh why duz life havto be so fuckd up . . I know i should expect God to test me . . yet i sitll ask why allt he time =\ *sigh* arghh sometimes i reeeli reeeli don't wanto live . i hate thinking i failed Gods test T_T how can i call myself a Christian T_T . . how can i live =\
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..how much i love you `
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Thursday, February 10, 2005.
7:16 PM
today_ wento school earlii to finish ancient hw and then yerh . . had business - hada fkn ryt this longass report on the 4 stages of a businesses life cycle -_-" then had umm ancient lolz went on a dig =S in the classroom . . .=S haha just in this plastic container . . anyways yerh had english then maths . .fk goin so bad in maths ryt now . . not undastanding shit T_T . . *sigh* hmm after school cort train to epping and went library . . got quyta bitov work dun . .with the help of ceechong ofcourse lolz . . thanx 0=D um then walkd over to get chips nd gravy =D thanx charlie hehe . . he also got me a greenapple suck =P mm . .then went back then got pickd up just came home
wednesday_ HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIZON AND JANET!!! hehehe dizon u can finally watch ma moviiz legally ROFL ROFl . . and janet . .. well ur legal HAHA 0=) legal evrything reeli ~ to move out and lyk do stuff *-)*-) ehhehe anyways just hope you guys hada reeli awesum day =D umm just went strayt home and had family dinnahh coz yer um chinese new year . . hada spesholl breakfast with like jai nd shit yumm =P=P hehe GONG XI FA CAI evryone . .or kong hei fat choi . . saym shiiit
tuesday_ just traind it to school . . had classes .. oh yerh got changed to software design YAY from ipt 0=) got my new timetable this morning and yerh . . it was heeps fun ~ did flash . .and we didnt use visual basic . . but macromedia flash2004. . . it was good nd i havan awesum teacher hehe . . buh ima miss my commerce teacher \=\= uhh after school trained it to chatty with yooni and metup with pat . . lolz pw`d [JOKeZ!!!] pickd me up frmo station and got a chat drink with me at mando . .then went maccaz lolz. anddd i did sum mathz at tha library and saw algenon wallace and scott . . den scott walkd me to archer st and yerh i walkd to piano teachahz studio . . i thort i was lost but finally found it . . fuck i suck so much at piano . .reeli gotta start practicing . .OMG its So gay next week i hava piano lesson on my BIRTHDAY T_T T_T . . \= anyways got pickd up and went sTRAyt to north ryde rsl in my UNIFORM for chinese new years ever dinner . . daym parents dint fkn tell me . . gayshit uniform . anyways i ate SO much fungus that nite nojoke every dish we ordered except like 1 or 2 had fungus in it . . yerh nd went home _ ONE WEEK TIL MY BIRTHDAY!!!
monday_ argh daymm shcool . . just went school then epping library after . .so much daym maths hw =\=
sunday_ missd out on church T_T im sooo goign this sunday tho sooo srslii! \= hrm stayd home . .w athcd A Walk To Remember . . fkn cried for like 30/40 minz strayt \= seriousli saddest movii EVEr . . i think its even worse dan notebook \= . . yerh and then watchd wicker park with josh hartnett . .its reeli good but a bit confusing . . i recommend it 0=) . .
saturday_ cort train and waited for jono at central coz he was late coz gay hurstvill line trains wernt working and then got to gloria jeans and sat down for seriousli 9 minutes and hten i hada go work . . didnt evn get to finish my mango chiller shit \= . .yerh and umm mel was working as well as jeremy and kevin . . ahhaha kevinz sucha loser . .when he goes on his breaks he unduz all his buttonz and flix up his collah ROFLROFL . hahaha jkz his cool" . . .yerhh anyways lolz gotoff at 6 . .hour earli coz andrewz nice and wento ella and makcelz birfday at chinatown . . .phoenix k and yerh drank abit nd drove rnd wiff ryan nd stuffs . .. later came back ct and went capitol . . lolz buttd in on sum stickhah pix and ella sweetie walkd me to spanish club to get pickd up 0=) . . got home nearli 12ish . .
` onli God knowz.
..how much i love you `
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Thursday, February 03, 2005.
10:29 PM
why is it that we alwez get wat we dont want . . but never seem tu get wat we DO want =\=\ . . its the same with guyz . . you like the ones that don't like you . .that you don't hava chance with . . but you never seem to like back those fkn rare ones that lyk you . . the ones that see who you really are . . and still like you for it . why why why .
*sigh* i guess its a subconcious thinking . . asif we wannit to be that way ! ! ! ~ think i enjoy getting my heart broken and vice versa ! ? not hat anyone ever really likes me to be truly hurt anyway -_-" =\ - - but yer . . why are feelings sucha bitch . . why cant they work how we want them to work =\ . . why cant i lyk the nice sweet smart caring guys as opposed to the fkn prick bitchz who treat me like shit . why do good gurlz lyk bad guy =\ ? seriousli . . . if you hava thort plz comment . humanbeingz seriousli are abit fkd up . . but i guess thats how God made us and there must be sum reason for it . even if we dont know it now
boiz say girlz are complicated . . well i'd rather be complicated than be a prick and a dikchead . .which is wat most guyz are . were complicated becoz your not supposed to understand gurlz just like that *clix* its something you havto work towards and like . . major in lolz . . its a prize . you cant just get a girl one day . . decide you dont want her anymore and drop her . IF YOU DO me nd lyk the 50 billion trillion restov the gurls in the world will come smash you ..
hrm i think ive had enough of thinking/ranting/smartness talking lolz . . gnyt evryone ~
` onli God knowz.
..how much i love you `
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3:01 PM
today_ dum de dum . . so bored . .anyways i decided to set out my blogging um things differentli . . recent first . . omg i havnt bloggd in so long . . reeeli cbf . . anyways im in ipt ryt now . . school sux i hate yr11 . . i already hav 2 assessments for bus and music in the first 3daym dayyz . . ipt is boring ima change tu spd it hinkz . . =S aaanyways myt meet colly aftah school tudai in ew
wednesdaii_ juss went school and bludgd swimming trials hahaha then gave larz a lift home and saw madeline FINALLY holycrap she is the cutest thing EVER i LOVE her . .LOVE LOVE LOOOVEEE her 0=D i wanna hava baby now LOLZ . . im serious =\=\ collyz toled me about 4 or 5 times 'kace . . hava baby so we can play withit!!' roflz anyway yerh shes so gorjuss nd soo chubby i love her 0=) hrm then it was stormy and we went home . . daym fkn net was down stupid optus biatchh
tuesdaii_ first fkn day gahh traind it to school . . photo day lolz . . i look like sucha faggot - and i got screwed over for my hair by year coordinator =\ omg got my sc FINA FKN LYY. . hrm not too bad . . coulda dun bettah but =S um after school cort to epping met ceechong charlie danny manda liv fiona nd stuff at library then did sum maths then playd dota =D lolz i didnt know ALL THIS TYME its like . . fkn same shit as 3corr . .shit i been playing for over a year . . except difrnt map and items and shit . . but similar - ish . yerh charlie shouted . . thanx charlie =D then got pickd up nd went home. . yerh and my dad came home and like gave me a three fone . . so yer . . if ur three i can call u for freee! =D its onli temp tho til i get my 0403 number over to three later in feb . . actualli 2 weeks . . WOW NEARLI MY BDAY HINTHINT HITNESS
mondaii_ had work lolz and all these grammar boiz came in . . lolz so did larissaz uncle heehee. . . um me nd lillian workd and i got off 330 ish . . john gave me an hour earli =D makcel and matt met me after and i ate then we went galaxy saw ryan in school uniform ROFLZ he loox funni 0=P then we watchd electra . . holy shit crap movie lolz but shes fkn hot esp in that leather suit 0=) then walkd to TH . . then to central . .missd 2 trains and ended up cathcing one tu stratty coz i didnt wanna stand and i thort thered be seats available at stratty lOlz and hten the fukn train was like 12 minutes late . . so it took me like 1.5 hours to get to epping FINALLI and i missed wendy -_-"but shes still here! YAY hehe =D and then met colly got pickd up nd she stayd nd we had a dnm til around 10 when she left
sundai_ worked 11 -230 with jeremiah lolz .. met him oustyd museum station and did fkn opening T_T lolz wawan came in and i sat nd ate lunch while he smokd . . smoking is bad for u . . .heart disease . . lung cancer . . bad breath . . nd ur hurting other pplz lungz as well . . stop being selfish u smokerz! um then jeremiah got off abit earli then we wento get chipz from wawan yummi lolz then i was full nd we went morning glory and i bought sum penz =D then wento the one in chinatown and got sum letter sets =D gosh they were pretty! haha then watchd henry do lion dancing. . it was fun but gotta bit repetitive =S stoopid drum beat got stuck in my head. . then we went k and went psycho hahaa jumping around on tha tablez nd shit =D haha went wif michelle jenifa jeremiah david colly tamz . . then corta train back from central wif colly and david . . was in a bad mood duno y but colly cheered me up . . and took my babii pic ov me and my malayzn friend . . lolz anyways yerh got pickd up and gave colly a lift home . .
saturdaii_ was supposed to work 12 - 7 but managed tu get off at 6 yay . . colly and pearl and stuff wer eusppose dto come visit me during lunch break but purl cbf T_T i was so cut =\=\ *sigh* great bfz. JOKES Lolz i still love you =\ . .yerh then kat and penny visited me and ate and stuff and then i walked back with them to george st and we went chinatown tu ct huntahh alley nd lyk eveyrone was there . . pat david makcel eric matt HE CAME BACK FROM HK LIKE THE dAY BEFORE@!!! 0=) um jeremiah elena nd eniz nd stuffs =P then walked to TH coz evryone buggd me to leave . . then colly finalli calld and sed go chinatown so kat penny pat walkd me then i hada ditch them =\ sorry guyz . . and wentup to the gym. . sat there for lyk 2 minutes and walked back down grr . . gave pat back his shirt thing and then colly got food from eating world and gotta lift back home . . thanx henryz friend lolz . . then omg i thort i lost my fuckn favourit jacket . . the black nobody one with hot pink writing and i called like EVERYONE to go chinatown to find it . . then no one could . .then later i decided to go outside and it was on the road -_-" rofl fkn idiot . . thanx jeremiah and rocky for looking 0=) even tho u didnt look the right place but ohwell hahaha
fridayy_ had work 12 - 330 yay and john let me bringin cdz tu play yay yoshinoya has good music now =D=D hehe yer then after work laura made me go take stickahhz wiff her at capitol hehe [ 1 2 3 4 ] then ran to central coz i had to be back at epping for a chiro appointment at carlo then got dropt at collyz and corta bus with androo tu macquarie and watchd closer . . err it was wierd . . but sorta good . . apparentli won lotsa grammiz. =S anyway yerh a smart movii ? ? then we wentu eat kfc yum and made friendz wiff da guy =D u know how ( onli ppl that work like . . serving people will get dis ) people like look at ur name tag and then they say yor name and ur like thinkin wtf how they know me lOLz anyway its freakii and i did it to this guy . . i go 'hi andrew can i get um 2 sweet chilli twisterz .. balhblahblah" lolz and then i ful llyk got his school grade age nd shit nd asked him if he knew sum ppl . . then androo goes ' wanna givus another burger?" ahaha and tha sickunt did =D=D haha thanx andrew! 0=) yerh i ate that and like 3/4 wicked wingz . .they aint htat great . . devil wingz from charcoal chickenz are better. . and had lotsa potato nd gravy and chips =D=D yerh then got pickd up outsyd maccaz nd went homeezz
thurrrsdaii_ made dizon geton my train at stratty and cort train to central to take stickahhz at capitol =D [1 2 3 4 ] yerh then um we wento work . . like 5 minutes late AHH yerh then ended at the same tim e. . 330 and went pitt st with jeremiah and eric .. bought 2 topz from general .. this white volcom tank .. so pretty 0=) and this black agent 99 boob tube . . theeenn wento borders but couldnt find jeremiahz books and got stuckin the scifi/fantasy section lolz . .they hada drag me out . . um then went to allanz music. . that place is lyk soon gonna be my new bumming place rofl . . it rox! i soo feel lyk jsut wheeling out a baby grand man T_T i want won sooo baaadd =\=\ . . . its my birthday soon ? ? ?hAHHAA pleeeeeez =\=\ . .. um yerh and they didnt hav my shit so ordered brahmz - intermezzo 118 no2. . theyre takin fkn forever . . then we wentu maccaz and saw evryone going to wildfire and kitty swapped shooz with me coz she didnt wanna wear silver heelz when it was raining so took my black havianas T_T . . then met colly and got bored so went home . .
` onli God knowz.
..how much i love you `