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Saturday, September 30, 2006.
9:13 AM
before starting my farewell entry, valedictory at the wentworth was SO fucking amazing, i had SO much fun, the decorations, the food, the atmosphere, the place - everything was so incredibly beautiful. and not a tear was shed, that was really good on my part! and edwina bartholomew came, the head girl of 2001 (the year we entered yr7 at abbotsleigh!) afterwards we were gonna go out but then half our group bailed. then we were gonna go cargo with hailes group, then their group bailed. so we chimed in with dee's group. was gonna cathc a taxi to the blackett, but the stupid taxi driver was like ' oh its really close' and we had to trek it there in HEELS from phillips st to corner of king and george. anyway i got changed into ales dress, then we walked down to cargo to find out it closed at 2, and so we cabbed it to kings cross, waited for ales taxi because she didnt fit =( byt hat time it was 2 and we wento vegas, it was pretty shit, 'just like an rsl' =P but the bartender upstairs was sucha champ he kepton cracking the corniest jokes haha.. and after that we wento empire, but larissa didnt get in, so i doubt i wouldve and we went back to vegas and i was gonna play pokies but this irish dude was annoying the hell out of us telling us to go upstairs to the 'nightclub' and not sit around and play pokies coz we could do that on a monday or tuesday night.. so we just left and larissa reallly wanted to go home, and so we cabbed it back to mine and took off the wealth of makup i had on and slept.
so school is finally over,
it's so hard for me to be sad about it because i know i have been waiting for this my entire life. but then every single memory of every school day, going down to chookas for lunch, cruskits and philli, vitawheat with cheese and vegemite, toasted sandwiches, a fat load of cup noodles and cupa soups, being late to every single lesson, finding out if mrs phillips is in a good or bad mood, copping shit from little for being late to music AND extension music =P, THE AUDITORIUM... MY SECOND HOME.. god i will miss you dearest auditorium grand piano T_T, C1 - home of the legends, MC4 omg Jess's second home! which makes it my 3rd home!! lolz, our really close software class (big fat tear*) who will never be reuinited again after the val (except in the exam) mr raymond and his little friend pinky, the IT department and my favourite person =S =S hahhaha.. and just every single yr12 girl, every moment walking down that yr 12 corridor and smiling or saying hi to at least 20 people, scaring henna, my infamous jarrah hot chocolates wiht 4 marshmallows that will one day give me diabetes.. *sigh* how can i say goodbye to it!? i still haven't said my goodbyes, it still feels like after 2 weeks im going back there (which i am) but it will never be the same again.
No longer will i run for that 7.27 train at epping, no longer will i catch the 628 or 629 bus home at 410, no longer will i carry that big fat heavy turtle bag, no longer will i trudge across that overpass WITH that big fat turtle bag, no longer will i see larissa come on to the train with her big red cup of cereal (she broke it), no longer will we do stupid things, dances, sayings, and be overly hyperactive with my entire group at school =( i haven't let it all out yet, because it still hasn't hit me, but i am almost in tears thinking about every single memory i'll miss, and how i can never do any of those things again, like wear my winter uniform ( no matter how much i whinge about it.. i will always love you! lolz)
and my gosh do we have enough memories larissa, about a billion and 1.. possibly more than anyone. we have shared our lives together for the lsat 6 years.. and through those years weve had an enormous wealth of good and bad times. (refer to winter shirt for some) dearest dearest mapupu.. i will never ever forget you.
goodbye abbotsleigh yr 12 2006.. the funnest times were with you, i will miss everyone soooo much!
` onli God knowz.
..how much i love you `
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Sunday, September 24, 2006.
7:28 PM
winamp: u2 - with or without you
msn: sisi, daniel
yesterday i put golf punk short shorts on layby at sp3! bought an oroton umbrella and a top from forcast! .
sisi and mykal brokup yesterday =(
the world is falling apart around us!!
me and pat..
now sisi and mykal
whats happening!
i wento macq library today to study with derrick. got some good maths and ancient done.. wento eat lunch at platinum.. and picked up his uniform for 'wear other uniforms to school day' on tuesday. then at 5 left library and me and dad drove to windsor . and there was this fuckign detour because of powerfailurs (probably coz of the fire) and i had to drive on this REALLY NARROW DIRT ROAD and it was sooo scary, i couldnt see because of all the dirt clouds, and we were in the middle of this big field of cabbage patches, and no lights for miles.. so fkn scary .. because there wa sa black out and this lady asked us to help her change her flat tyre.. and i knew how to! but i let dad do it anyway.. learnt it at yr12 camp lolz.. anyway yer drove home and now im fkn hungry..
omg on the way back hom mix 106.5 playing the 2 saddest but most relevant songs for me right now =(
u2 - with or without you
patti smyth & don henley - sometimes love just aint enough =(=(
i still love him so much, but the breakup was really clean, and i guess both of us had hard times with eachother... we both didn't like things about eachother even though we love eachother. were so opposite in soo many ways.. but i really dont know how im going to get through this. it still hasn't fully hit me. that hes not gonna come over, and cuddle up with me when we watch movies or tv shows.... that im not gonna go over to his house and play scattergories with his parents =\ yet im excited about the prospect of freedom and exploration.. i have no idea what the fuck to do. yet if i wait any longer time will decide for me=\.. but will that be the decision thats best??
any advice is welcome !!
my heart goes out to sisi right now.. i love you long time hunny!! you are sooo absolutely special to me!! MUAH <3 <3
` onli God knowz.
..how much i love you `
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Saturday, September 16, 2006.
12:56 PM
winamp: yeah yeah yeahs - maps
msn: hieu, dizon
9 days of school left and 45 days til my last exam
i'm going to cry.. i love my school.. i have school pride.. my daughters are going to my school! i dont care what they say it is the best school ever.. even though by then the fees would be like 200% and i wouldn't be able to afford 40k on a child a year lolz..
well last night was fun, annas 18th at wahroonga .. didn't drink much.. saw robbie and timso and taka.. and izzy! haven't seen for sooo long.. and this morning we won hockey 4 nil against ravo.. bahaha *points and laughs!!!* annnd having a bbq right now for my brothers 25th, omg so old lolz.. and tonight is kates 18th at penno.. fun fun fun! my cowgirl outfit is a little skanky =S =S..
ANYWAYS last weekend was mykals 19th, jonos 18th and hings 19th.. baked a posh marble cake with chocolate icing and crap ont op with mymummy. and ate at city then to teenybopper k at phoenix later.. then drove kitty home and pat came to mine for a bit..
` onli God knowz.
..how much i love you `
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Friday, September 01, 2006.
6:18 PM
winamp: Iron and Wine - Such Great Heights
msn: Pat, Alex, Jordan
omg havent blogged for so long..
anyway trials were shit.. got everything back now..
did SHIT
maths - so dissapointed.. alot less than i thought i would get.. 99/120 - 82%
maths ext - did as well as i thought i would =P 34/84 - well what do u expect with no study but one practice essay! bahahah.. i came 3rd in my class too.. shit class =P
ancient - SO much better than i thought, seeing as i skimread 2 topics (pericles and augustan age.. 150 pages) THAT MORNING.. 80% =D =D i managed to scrap ethrough 19/25 for both those topics =D
english - alot better than i expected, but still shit.. just under average.. i fuckn read the wrong question for lear and did a SPEECH fkn dumbass.. but emma and clueless pulled through =D got 18/20 for that section.. so damn proud of myself!! so ended up gettin 73% for paper 1 and 76% for paper 2..
music - very dissapointed, but i only studied the horu before.. and VERY inefficiently.. int he common room =P haha got like, 20 1/2 out of 35 bahaha so shit.. 58% T_T
software - REALLY REALLY BAD.. byt his time, (being my last exam) i was so fucking over it.. i got like.. 65.5% bahaha.. but my major did heaps better htan i expected. 55.5/70 - at first i thought it was outof 100 and i accepted it! then i found out it was outof 70 so i was like PHEW.. ahhaha
well yerh.. im lookin at 80uai now i reckon! T_T *CRIEZ*.. *sigh*..
today had trio prac in the morning, software, ancient, ext music, hockey at lunch (we beat the 3rds! and were team 8 ! social team!!!) then music last.. got chips and gravy with cassie at chookas after school and caught train and bus home.. then went for a walk around 5.. big fat round til like.. almost 6.. i got whistled at, beeped at, smiled at and talked to =).. ppl in epping are so nice.. they just walk past you and smile.. were a friendly neighbourhood! and i didnt know how many nice houses there were! i went out of my usual route today to explore (though i did know where i was).. but i dont know if you can call it 'usual' if youve done it twice =P haha well anyway, tonight having a family dinner, pat is coming over soon because my grandma is going to malaysia this weekend. and tomorrow i have hockey at abbotsleigh vs ravenswood at 10. then might go to unsw openday, then to get my sass and bide jeans from david jones! =D =D =D
` onli God knowz.
..how much i love you `