Sunday, September 24, 2006.
7:28 PM
winamp: u2 - with or without you
msn: sisi, daniel
yesterday i put golf punk short shorts on layby at sp3! bought an oroton umbrella and a top from forcast! .
sisi and mykal brokup yesterday =(
the world is falling apart around us!!
me and pat..
now sisi and mykal
whats happening!
i wento macq library today to study with derrick. got some good maths and ancient done.. wento eat lunch at platinum.. and picked up his uniform for 'wear other uniforms to school day' on tuesday. then at 5 left library and me and dad drove to windsor . and there was this fuckign detour because of powerfailurs (probably coz of the fire) and i had to drive on this REALLY NARROW DIRT ROAD and it was sooo scary, i couldnt see because of all the dirt clouds, and we were in the middle of this big field of cabbage patches, and no lights for miles.. so fkn scary .. because there wa sa black out and this lady asked us to help her change her flat tyre.. and i knew how to! but i let dad do it anyway.. learnt it at yr12 camp lolz.. anyway yer drove home and now im fkn hungry..
omg on the way back hom mix 106.5 playing the 2 saddest but most relevant songs for me right now =(
u2 - with or without you
patti smyth & don henley - sometimes love just aint enough =(=(
i still love him so much, but the breakup was really clean, and i guess both of us had hard times with eachother... we both didn't like things about eachother even though we love eachother. were so opposite in soo many ways.. but i really dont know how im going to get through this. it still hasn't fully hit me. that hes not gonna come over, and cuddle up with me when we watch movies or tv shows.... that im not gonna go over to his house and play scattergories with his parents =\ yet im excited about the prospect of freedom and exploration.. i have no idea what the fuck to do. yet if i wait any longer time will decide for me=\.. but will that be the decision thats best??
any advice is welcome !!
my heart goes out to sisi right now.. i love you long time hunny!! you are sooo absolutely special to me!! MUAH <3 <3
` onli God knowz.
..how much i love you `